tired

kids were up literally all night.... my brain is fried.... had to get a shot..... but im stocked up on my meds.... im still crazy.... and fat.... either way.... i smell a new haircut comming my way.... its icky and too long..... must scamper to super rachels for a fresh do.... saturday hopefully.... i have a wedding in 2 wks..... in the middle of no where.... im ascared ill die and the hospital wont be close enough..... irrational.... i know.... but... my mind cant help but think these horrid thoughts.... i use a lot of ...'s... damn! my kids are excited and i cant back out.... i am excited to meet some family i havent met before..... i just dont wanna look like a tard..... thus the hair cut.... ew and im wearing a dress.... like bleh! although i dont look as bad as i thought i would in it.... sooooo yeah...cinnamon toast for breffis this morning..... forcing the kids to stay up til noon.... this is gunna get oogly..... oh well.