ugh.

heres a question.

if you were hit on the thruway by a 23yr old driver in his daddys car with out insurence and you arent physically hurt but emotionally u are and you are actually tearing ur skin up with your nails and pulling your hair out and eating it…. would you sue for damages to you mentally? 

im extremly upset about this.. its been 3 wks. and you can tell im pulling my hair out. and my back arms and legs are all open wounds and shit… i dunno…. i feel even more broken then i did before when i thought i was at my worst point….

tired

kids were up literally all night.... my brain is fried.... had to get a shot..... but im stocked up on my meds.... im still crazy.... and fat.... either way.... i smell a new haircut comming my way.... its icky and too long..... must scamper to super rachels for a fresh do.... saturday hopefully.... i have a wedding in 2 wks..... in the middle of no where.... im ascared ill die and the hospital wont be close enough..... irrational.... i know.... but... my mind cant help but think these horrid thoughts.... i use a lot of ...'s... damn! my kids are excited and i cant back out.... i am excited to meet some family i havent met before..... i just dont wanna look like a tard..... thus the hair cut.... ew and im wearing a dress.... like bleh! although i dont look as bad as i thought i would in it.... sooooo yeah...cinnamon toast for breffis this morning..... forcing the kids to stay up til noon.... this is gunna get oogly..... oh well.